Not really me

I search for u all around 

You seem to be nowhere 

I wait for u all the time 

This emptiness I can’t bear 

I became a human so dull 

U never deserved anyways 

I acted a stupid so some 

U never thought betrays 

I became something absurd 

Something I can’t portray 

Something u didn’t fall for 

With whom u could never stay 

I became something evil 

I so don’t know how

I never really wanted to 

But I did so somehow 

Please do hold my hand 

And please walk me through 

Through the darkness n all 

Please take me with you!! 

I love you Sweetheart 

I love you so muchhh ... 

Please attract me to you. 

Please bring me to you .. 

please take me with you...

Please ... be mine!!!... again! :( 

Feel so lost

I don’t know what’s up 

I don’t know what for 

I can’t seem to catch up 

Why I’m stuck in before 

Something seems wrong 

And I can’t figure out why 

everything was supposed

To anyhow someday die 

To grief or to maybe not 

Are the things I’m stuck on 

Totally have lost inspiration 

To base my empty life upon 

Only the damn indecision 

Just  the lame uncertainty 

Are all I’m  left now with 

For myself I feel so pity 

Why did I end up lying so 

Somebody please do answer 

I’ve lost the will to write more 

Totally lost it to live further 

Somebody , kill me please!!